Monday, July 22, 2013
My worst and meanest critic...
It's me. I'll post a picture of my head on facebook and all the nice folks tell me how prettiful I look and I check out the picture again, to see what they're seeing.
What I notice? Well, look...my eye and one side of my mouth aren't even with the other. The lack of symmetry is the facial droop left from my strokes. Gah, what is up with my googley eyes? Why did I post this?
I write a story and I then shoot the file off to my crit partners. After clicking send, the waves of regret hit. Man, I should have run another round of edits on that before I sent it out. And my premise? What was I thinking? It's too weird, I don't have the voice for that story...my characters? Gah, who can identify with her? She's a twit!
I've even been known to do it while speaking. Did I really say that out loud? *headsmack* Oh, no, I shouldn't have headsmacked. Maybe no one noticed that I should walk around with a ball gag in my mouth to protect the public from my raving stupidity...oh, no, here it comes.
Now I'm laughing. Crap. I'm braying like a donkey being beaten. Fudge.
I know I'm not the only one constantly beating myself up. We're programmed to do it.
Still, I work on lifting others up. I hope I'm a generally nice person and that I'm much kinder to others than I am myself.
Do you guys silently holler at yourselves, too?
at 6:58 AM